Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Have I found you, flightless bird?
I talked a couple of weeks ago about how hard dating is. What I failed to understand at the time was that when someone truly special comes around, it's not. It comes easily, like breathing.
I don't know what either of us had in mind when we started talking over six months ago, but I don't think it was ever initially thought to be anything more than an internet friendship, getting to know each other, and enjoying the other enough to continue with conversations over the weeks and months.
He was patient with me while my heart healed, I extended the same. It wasn't until we started text messaging each other more frequently, seeking each other out through space on purpose rather than simply stumbling into each other. The first night when he actually called me rather than shooting me a text, and I knew this could actually become something more. We talked for over an hour.
He has allowed me to find myself and my happiness within by simply being there. A shoulder to lean on, a sounding board to bounce ideas off of, someone to laugh with. He GETS me in a way that not a lot of other people can, or have ever made the effort to.
He gives me goosebumps just from the simple act of tucking my hair behind my ear. His gentleness endearing. He'll stand behind me in the kitchen, kissing the base of my neck as I am cutting up chicken, or pouring myself a drink. When I look into his eyes, I see myself as he sees me, and it's something new and fresh. It makes me feel alive.
He is well traveled, has been places and done things. He has loved intensely and lost, which doesn't seem like something to celebrate, but there are so many people in this world who haven't. He is easy to talk to, quick to laugh, and above all else completely and utterly real. This is how I see him, and how I want him to know I see him.
Living an hour apart so far isn't easy, but it's a lot easier than I thought it would be. We both have busy lives and schedules and jobs, both of us single parents.
But I know that he's thinking of me when he wakes up in the morning, and for right now, that's really all I need.