January 2019 recap, February 2019 goals

I am recapping my month a couple of days early, as this time tomorrow, I will be in Jamaica.  This trip is a long time in the making, and almost a year of planning, and it is going to be amazing.

That being said, here we go.


JANUARY 2019 GOALS: RECAP

Lose 5 pounds.
- As of yesterday morning I am down 6.6 lbs since the start of the month.

Take body measurements.
- DONE!

Go to the gym at least 20 times.
- As of this morning, and my trip to a foreign Anytime Fitness in Denver, I went 20 times.  I am going to try to make it to the resort gym at least a few times, so that number may be higher.

c25k at least twice a week.
- I finished W3D1 of c25k last Monday.  I know excuses are like assholes, but we had some really terrible weather, and were busy with things like concerts.  I plan to restart week 3 when I get back from vacation.  

begin strength training - weights, or body resistance 2x a week.
- This is something I need to do better with.  I did do body resistance workouts a few times, but not like I wanted to.

Average no less than 10k steps a day.
- This was a big fat WIN, other than weekends.  I will add it up when I get home, but I think I was close to 175 miles this month.

Read 2 books.
- Read Pet Sematary, and restarted Into The Water.  I will hopefully finish this in our time in the airport tonight and into tomorrow.  I plan to start the first Game of Thrones after that.

Get a pedicure before BTTI2019.
- DONE!  The color I picked is called Aloha!

Be mindful of negative self talk.
- This is a struggle.  I have my good days, and I have my bad days.  On my bad days I try to remember to talk to myself as if I was speaking to one of my friends.  I love my friends.  Unconditionally, and with all of their flaws.  I am trying to do the same with myself.

Clean mud room, and closet.
- Yeah, this one didn't get done.  At all.

Other than the emotional roller coaster that has been the government shutdown, this has been a good month.  I plan on wrapping up the month on the beach, with a drink in one hand, a book in the other, and one of my forever friends by my side.  I also plan on wrapping my arms around Taylor Hanson, and dying a happy woman.

February 2019 GOALS:

- Lose 5 pounds.

- Go to the gym at least 20 times. - this will be cutting it close, as it's a short month, and I'll be out of the country until the 3rd.

- c25k at least twice a week.

- drink more water
- meal planning - try to find a method not only for making the meals, but not overbuying at the grocery store.
- make one NEW meal every week.

- average no less than 10k steps a day.

- read 2 books.

- make sure the kitchen sink, kitchen counters, and dining room table are clean, and wiped off every night before going to bed.
- be mindful of negative self talk.

- Buy fresh flowers, at least once.

Welcome to a new year: 2019. FIND THE SPARK INSIDE AND LET IT BURN

My life, I'm sure like most other people's ebbs and flows.  Year after year goes by, and most of the time we don't bother to take a look at it until it's almost over.  I don't remember if I even wrote one of these last year.  This was a year of changes.  It was the first time in four years that I wasn't bogged down with classes.  Aiden's increased independence has given me some of my own back.  I dated one man, who I care for deeply, but our circumstances were such that we can't make things fall together right now due to distance and extenuating circumstances.  I haven't failed completely as a parent, as an employee, as a daughter or sister.  I bought a new car.  I made all of my house payments.  The year ended on a positive.  I am beginning this year 18 pounds lighter than 2018.

The things I battle the most are my own emotions.  So much of that, I know I have no control over.  There are only so many things I can do to stifle the demons, and some days I just have to let them come.  There are days when I have to lock myself in my room and do absolutely nothing, talk to no one, and just recharge.  These days are fewer.  The days when I am actually able to talk myself out of that darkness feels so empowering, that the next time I am in that place, I am that much more likely to attempt to overcome it.

So where does that leave me?  Resolutions.  But I am going to think of them more as guidelines to try to keep me in the right path this next year.

2019 GOALS:

-lose:

• 50 lbs.  I am keeping this relatively low, but also not going to short change myself.  With the changes I have made recently, I don't think this is too hard of a number to shoot for at less than a pound a week.
• negative self-talk
• toxic people
• excuses

-gain:

• strength
• flexibility
• indurance
• confidence in myself

- read 24 books, start to finish.

-continue to make better food choices.  (I've been seriously considering giving Keto a try, but I need guidance... anyone around to help me?)

-laugh, loudly, and so hard that I snort... on a regular basis.

-remind the people I love how much they mean to me, and regularly.

-continue to get a handle on my finances and start saving, even if it's small, it's something.

I have decided not to actively date for the next 12 months.  If something comes around, great, but I am not going to go out and look for anything.

JANUARY 2019 GOALS:

- Lose 5 pounds.

- Take body measurements.

- Go to the gym at least 20 times.

- c25k at least twice a week.

- begin strength training - weights, or body resistance 2x a week.

- average no less than 10k steps a day.

- read 2 books.

- get a pedicure before BTTI2019.

- be mindful of negative self talk.

- clean mud room, and closet.