Friday, December 31, 2010

A New Chapter

On this cold December morning, only a few short hours away from the start of 2011, and I thought that this was as good of a time as any to start fresh.

I should probably start by introducing myself. My name is Sadie. I'm 27 years old. I am a single mother to a little boy whose name is Aiden. He is seven. He is in 1st grade. I work full time at the local hospital in Materials Management. We live, just the two of us, in a cozy little two bedroom apartment.

I enjoy movies and music. I love to read, but I find myself wasting most of my free time on my computer rather than doing other things. I also like to draw, though I'm not very good at it.

Through the last seven years that I've been a mother, I have learned so many things about myself. I am terrible with money, I'm actually a pretty decent cook, and even though I don't like children I love my son.

Aiden was born with bilateral clubfoot, which basically means had he not had surgery and serial casting as a baby he would have walked on his ankles rather than on his feet. I'll elaborate on all of that in a later post.

In the last two months I have managed to allow myself to fall in love. As a teenager I fell in love hard and fast and heart-first. I wrote love poems and songs, and fell in love with all of the wrong people for all of the wrong reasons. At 27 years old, I find myself loving someone for the first time as an adult. It is terrifying and liberating all at the same time.

I have journaled online for over ten years now, but this is a first for me to do it in a public forum. Another aspect of my life that is terrifying and liberating. Of course, I wont tell everything. What I do want to document and share are my adventures as a mother, a lover, and a woman.

I'm not promising excitement, but I am promising honesty.