July 2019 Goals Recap - August 2019 Goals

July has taken my breath away.  

I began the month on a boat, in the middle of a lake, watching fireworks with a man who had his arm draped casually around my back, his hand on my hip.  I cultivated new relationships, rekindled old friendships, and stepped outside of my comfort zone in a way that I haven't for a long time.  

I allowed myself to melt a little.  I allowed the vulnerability to come to the surface.  Something I thought J had taken away, and made me cold.  I remembered that I am not cold.

I am told at least daily how much I've changed physically.  Sometimes by people I know, sometimes by near strangers.  While hearing it encourages me to continue doing what I have been doing, it also makes me more attune to the "invisible fat girl" that I was.

JULY 2019 GOALS RECAP

Lose 4 lbs.  Be okay with losing 4 lbs.
- This one is a HUGE WIN!  I lost 11.6 lbs.

Go to the gym 20 times
- WIN! I went 29 times.  Several of those I went twice in one day.

Take new measurements.
- WIN!  I actually took them this afternoon.  The last ones I took were the end of March, shortly after starting the keto diet.  Since then I am down 3 inches in my neck, 6 inches in my bust, 4.5 inches in my waist, and 4 inches in my hips.  No wonder my clothes don't fit.

Finish two books.
- WIN!  I finished The Good Girl, and just this morning finished The Outsider.

Buy new workout shoes.
- FAIL!  Any and all not necessary expenses have been suspended for the time being.  I will make my old shoes work for now.

Make a dentist appointment.
- FAIL!  See above.  Not necessary at this point in time.

1 week vegetarian keto
- FAIL!  Keto is hard.  Trying to get my fat and protein without meat was too hard and was causing undue stress.  I gave up two days in.

Organize my closet

- FAIL!  I am making progress, though.  Currently, half of my closet is draped and folded on my couch, so that's something, right?

Stretch nightly.

- WIN! Maybe not nightly, but definitely daily.

AUGUST 2019 GOALS

- Lose 4 lbs. Be okay with losing 4 lbs.

- Go to the gym 20 times.

- Less cardio, more thoughts on strength.

- Finish two books.

- If you can't change it, let it go.

- Finish closet organizing.

- Take progress photos

- Stop kicking myself for things I cannot control

- If it's meant to be, it will be.  Let it be.