October 2022 Goals
- - Lose 5 pounds. This is less than a pound a week.
- - Do new measurements.
- - New progress photos.
- - Go to the gym at least 10 times. (This is just over twice a week... minimum of 30 minutes)
- - Beachbody workouts 5x a week.
- - Take 30 minutes a day to just sit and be. Read, write, meditate. 30 minutes a day for me.
- - Finish 1 new book.
- - Sort through clothes. Donate, sell, trash.
- - Learn to love the silence, sometimes.
- - Practice patience, and don't let the emotions of others dictate my own responses.
- - Plan: meals, days, cleaning, etc. You feel better when you plan. SO JUST DO IT!
It has been quite a while since I have written here. Nearly two years. So much in my life has changed and altered since my last entry.
I have changed. We all have.
For the first time in my life, I am happy with where my life is at, though I still battle every day with being happy with where *I* am at. I feel as though no matter how hard I try; I cannot make improvements in the physical sense. I still cling to old methods to cope, which have NEVER served me, and I know in my heart and my head WILL never serve me.
I want to try and pick up this blogging thing again. I still struggle with putting myself out there in a way that feels genuine and less edited. I still fear the repercussions of me speaking my truths with the world and being punished for it.
The ten-year anniversary of my trauma is just around the corner, and every day I struggle with it. Every year is better than the next, but every year also serves to remind me that I am never going to be completely healed. I also feel guilty, constantly, for feeling that way as it feels like such a small thing compared to traumas other people have faced and struggle with and overcome.
I am at peace, though. I am in love, and my cup runs over the majority of the time. I want to help other people better themselves in their own lives. I have so many grand plans, but not sure really where to start. I will get there, but just like everything else, that's going to take some practice.
- I have missed you :)
Love, Sadie
