I started the month of July on a boat, and I ended August on that same boat, in the middle of a lake, watching all of the stars above us. I feel as though this entire summer, like most, went far too quickly. I feel like I am a different person emerging on this end of the season. I am enjoying my life, and those people around me. For the first time in a very long time I am beginning to feel as though I belong where I am, in this moment. And that's a good feeling.
I feel the changes in my body, even if I don't always see them. I feel them in my face, in my collarbones, in my hands and feet, in my shoulders. My wrists have shrunk. A good friend referred to me as "dainty" the other day, which made me laugh, because for anyone who has ever known me, dainty is not something I exude.
Sometimes I feel like I need to hurry up and get somewhere and do something and be someone. (DO.GO.BE) What I really need to do is take a deep breath, slow down, and enjoy the journey. Things were not meant to be instant. It's a step by step process, and I wish I could accept that easier. I want everything and I want it now. So essentially, what I'd like for Christmas this year is patience.
AUGUST 2019 GOALS RECAP
Lose 4 lbs. Be okay with losing 4 lbs.
- WIN! I lost 9.6 lbs. In the last two months, I have lost 20 lbs!
Go to the gym 20 times.
- WIN! I went 31 times. Several of those were double duty days. I never missed a weekday.
Less cardio, more thoughts on strength.
- FAIL! Why is this one so hard for me?
Finish 2 books.
- WIN! I finished The Outsider, All the Ugly and Wonderful Things, and Our Homesick Songs. I am about 1/4 through The Silent Corner.
If you can't change it, let it go.
- Pending. Every day I'm working on it. I'm working on my reaction to things, as this is really the only thing I am able to control.
Finish closet organizing.
- FAIL! Yeah, this and strength training. Can't bring myself to do it!
Take progress photos.
- WIN! I have taken several at the end of last month, and throughout this month. I'm starting to look frumpy again with my pants not fitting correctly.
Stop kicking myself for the things I cannot control.
- See above with change. I am doing better with taking deep breaths and letting certain things roll off.
If it's meant to be, it will be. Let it be.
- Preach, sista.
SEPTEMBER 2019 GOALS
- Lose 4 lbs. Be okay with losing 4 lbs.
- Go to the gym 20 times.
- Weights at least 6 times at the gym.
- Finish two books.
- Find and make 1 new recipe per week.
- Dance my ass off at the Kansas State Fair.
- Hug more. Love more. Show it more.
- Organize closet, start sorting through guest room.
- Accept what people have to offer. Drink their milkshakes. Take their love.
